The Lady Who’s “Fat on the Inside”

Heid E Hodes

HeidE Hodes, COO of Why Weight for Recovery is an entrepreneur and innovator. She has 32 years of experience in team building, team managing, budgeting, researching, acquiring, and leasing / selling of assets. She is the principal broker of The James M. Real Estate Group which operates in the commercial, residential, and business services realm.

As an emotional, compulsive overeater and food addict in recovery, she is a passionate advocate of obesity recovery and addiction, and the detrimental role it plays on the addict as well as the family unit as a whole.

The Journey of HeidE – The Lady Who’s “Fat on the Inside”

I have gained and lost over 600lbs in my lifetime. After dieting, pill popping, exercising, binging and purging, anorexia, chaos, anxiety and depression, I HIT MY proverbial BOTTOM in 2015.

On the “outside”, I was a perfect mom, successful businesswoman, loving wife and dedicated friend.

In reality, I was 250lbs with a BMI of 38. I was insulin resistant and at risk for diabetes, heart disease and fatty liver disease. I was in constant pain and my knees, hips and back were “killing me”. I was short of breath and unable to walk up a flight of stairs without panting, and even worse, I was in constant fear of being “found out”.

I was self-loathing and ashamed of how I looked. I was defeated and powerless over this thing they call addiction, and felt isolated and alone. I did less with others and spent time gorging on my own. I was angry, frustrated and hopeless…and that was only the beginning.

Having my colon “burst”, added to the acute awareness that SOMETHING had to CHANGE – that I was losing the battle…and I had no idea of what to do.

Fast forward to the “quick fix” – I had bariatric (gastric sleeve) surgery and was on my way to losing 130 lbs. And again, “on the outside”, I was thin, beautiful and back to being my old successful self, doing all the amazing things I had been praised for before.

In reality, I was still ‘fat on the inside”. I was defeated and powerless over this thing they call addiction, and felt isolated and alone. I did less with others and spent more time on my own. I was angry, frustrated and hopeless…and that was only the beginning.

Until I found RECOVERY!!!